Today's blog post is extremely personal and I have fought with myself back and forth as to whether I was even going to post it. For 2017 I want this blog to move forward and I want to start informing people about the ups and downs of living with Crohn's Disease.
I wrote a blog post (Linked Here) two years ago for Invisible Illness week in which I made the move to tell everyone of my condition. Two years on I haven't done anything else and feel people need to know and understand this illness.
The past four years have been a roller-coaster of highs and lows but all came to a head at Christmas when I was admitted to hospital with a perforated bowel. I was on a family trip to the Prague Christmas Markets when I started to feel unwell and spent the whole break in a hotel bed. When I look back now I was lucky to even get home. A word to the wise, don't google anything cause you will instantly regret it. I thought I was fine and didn't know why everyone was fussing... Then I found out how serious this was and let's just say, there was very little sleep got after that!
,Having something like that happen to you, where your life is literally brought to a standstill really puts everything into perspective. The things you were worried about prior to this seem minute, the bills you have to pay, the things you NEED to get done all fall by the wayside. There is nothing you can do and life continues to go on like normal.
While I was in hospital I was put on bowel rest to help heal the wound inside me, while being pumped with all kinds of fluids and antibiotics. I was not allowed to eat or drink anything for 6 days and believe me when I tell you, the not eating was fine, but those silly cotton swabs they give you to dab your lips are a load of nonsense.!
This was all new to me, I've had bad periods over the last four years and I genuinely thought I was having a bad flare up and I'd be fine in a couple of days. Worst case I'd go to my GP and get some antibiotics. Having no drink for 4 days was one of the hardest parts of the whole experience.
Liquid diets are Sh*t!
After a week spent in hospital I was finally allowed to go home and was put on a strict liquid diet for 10 days. This was probably the hardest part of the process as with it being Christmas time, all I wanted was sweets and wine and chocolate! This is where I found out I am not cut out for any liquid diet to lose weight... It is not worth the hardship! My advice to any of you doing shakes is STOP! It's a good day you can eat so why avoid it! Eat healthy and exercise, it will take a little bit longer but you will get the results! It is only when it is taken from you, you appreciate something as small as a rice crispie! :)
The recovery process
While I am feeling a lot better and I am here to annoy you all, my journey is by no means over. The next few months consist of scans and bloods and various test to see can we kick this illness in the butt! I still have days where I am reduced to a liquid diet as I am too sick to eat (today being one of them days). There are other days when I feel like there is nothing wrong at all but to be honest these days are few and far between.
The one downer about having Crohn's is it's incurable... Some people are lucky enough to go into remission from medication. The doctors are still trying to figure that one out with me. I quote my specialist 'The more I deal with this, the less I know about it' that was in reference to me ending up in hospital while on very strong medication that should have prevented the problem.
I was taking injections and while I thought they were improving things I know how to look for an alternative. It's not all doom and gloom though, the scare I got at Christmas is making me face things head on now.. I've applied to go back to college, I've booked a holiday with no money! (I will be saving every penny) and I've learned how strong of a person I am. *queue inspirational music here*
The whole point of this blog is not to receive any sympathy, I've been living with this for the past four years, I will be living with it the rest of my life and quiet frankly, I don't want any. The point is to tell you to not hold back on life!
If you are thinking of doing a course, going to Antarctica, writing a book or simple dying your hair... why wait? You never know what is around the corner. Look back on your life saying 'I can't believe I did that!' rather than 'why didn't I?' Life is way to short to second guess yourself even once.
In the words of the great sports brand Nike..... JUST DO IT! Haha! :)
Until next time,